家

一个家玩玩整整的, 不好吗?  

非要离婚吗? 都在一起那么多年了! 都生活在一起那么多年了! 有伤心, 开心, 烦躁, 什么种类都有。我们大家也一起熬过了那些辛苦日子! 难道真的要离开吗? 一定要这样得完毕吗? 

我真的不知道。 爱情, 亲情 怎样选择呢? 

Fuck the tittle.

I realized that whatever’s going on is just a part of life. My teacher being a total asshole to me and my friends, I sabotaged my relationship, I’m failing in school and more shit. 

Yeah, my teacher is such a big asshole, but I can’t do anything and I don’t plan to do anything YET. I am strong enough to hold down the pain when he tries to rip my heart off. Also, I’m just letting him walk of with laughter and I always tell myself, some day, when i’m fed up, I will so damn fucked his life up like a bitch. At the mean time, just sit back, chill, have a cupcake or chill with pop corn and watch the karma show. Someday, he will be fucked.

Oh and Eefa, I don’t know what you are doing but I’m sure that you don’t like me. I don’t say shit doesn’t mean I’m afraid. I won’t hate you, since you will probably end up like Ravin, so yeah. Take care honey! 

As for my relationship, hmm, I always wonder, why am i crying every night for hours? I’m so pathetic. I broke up with him, i hurt him like for so many times and i’m such a bullcrap. So why should I expect us to get back together? Nah, I don’t deserve it but I’ll love him until I move on. 

It is sad that he didn’t believe me in the end. I love Edward as a friend and yes, I do know that he loves me more than a friend. But seriously, why the fuck would i get a relationship with him? it’s like, fucking eww. Our personalities don’t match (Clearly) and besides, I love my monkey. 

It is sad that we missed out so many times. Finally, there came an end to this relationship. We would be celebrating so many events together, going to college together and I would love to go with you, to a boarding school, away from our parents, just you and me. OO LALA, sounds awesome ehh? Well, it’ll be in my dreams <3 I miss you a lot and I realized how much I love you after this break up. Sorry, it came really late. No worries, you’ll have someone better than me! FOR SURE!

Lastly, education. It’s time for me to put behind all these, hide it and I really really need to stay strong. I know that i can do it and I will try my best. At the moment, i wouldn’t move on, the choice is simply a no, I will not move on. I will become stronger every time when i cry and in future, maybe I will move on. 


Life is such a mess, but somehow it is interesting.  

Idiot.

Dear Su Sann, 

You are the biggest idiot ever. Crying for hours and not being okay all the time certainly does not bring him back to your life. SO SHUT THE HELL UP and go and fucking do your work. You NEED to be fucking strong and please, forget about him. He doesn’t want you back, so stop thinking about him. DONT be stupid thinking that he will take you back again! Who do you think you are? You don’t deserve to be his girlfriend kay. 

So stop weeping. It is useless and it is wasting your time.